Bellatrix Lestrange is one CRAZY BITCH.

And now for a meme


Whether you see online roleplay an extension of yourself and your own personality, or a fun writing exercise where literally anything goes, everyone has different comfort levels, kinks, and interests. But all we really care about is the smut.

Mark the things you have roleplayed with ‘x’, then: italicize the things you haven’t roleplayed, but might want to/would be willing to try, and strike through the things you’d absolutely never be willing to touch.


( I... need...more...experience... )

Alright, I am most likely not going to bother going to AWA.

Without Kaji going, I am pretty sure Sonia isn't going either. It's just not a good time for money. With those two not going, If Ash & Chris are too busy with school, I'm just going to either [A] Not go or [B] hang out with Marysia for that entire weekend. I just don't see any reason to get excited over this anymore, even more with everybody talking behind everyone's backs or just stabbing them in their backs entirely.



Other news, I am trying to branch out into new rp's +_+ maybe if I had more than one focus, so many things wont annoy me all the time~ and ppppfffft. I'm not sure what I'm doing on cosplay anymore. Things are falling through now.

PICK ONE OF MY CHARACTERS AND I WILL TELL YOU:
→ why I decided to play this character
→ my favorite scene or bit of interaction concerning this character to date
→ my favorite original aspect about this character (world-building for ocs or head-canon for fcs)
→ the last thing they did "off screen"
→ what their last words would be if they died tomorrow
→ what the next thing I'm doing for them is (narrative, post, shelving, whatever)

BONUS ROUND:
» I will tell you what character of yours I'd like to play mine against
» you may ask me a free question if you so desire

THE MUSES...but not fully updated

I'm already feeling viciously sick over just knowing I'll be going an entire weekend like this.


I'm going to go see where that guy is put down. I know he'd think this is so retarded to be stressed over.


Fuck, tears. Just going to bed now.

I'm just not giving an update on the con. It's just all around best I didn't.


It only makes me look forward to AWA. I want to spend that time with Kaji since I'm not sure about Ri and actually having someone to talk to and be with who will listen to what I have to say. Or my sister. That works too I guess. I guess once I come back from these next trips (or in between them) I'll start working on Romano and then decide on Blood & Ikuto


So this weekend I'm going to Dad's grave for fathers day. After that we are choosing between going to the Casino and going to Walt Disney World. If we're going to the Casino, we're going that the next weekend. If WDW then... I don't even fucking know.

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They have been leaving Cam here a lot more. That's actually very annoying. If I don't tell you I'm going to watch your kid, don't expect me to just because you leave him here. Don't sling that family crap either. That word doesn't really mean as much to me as you think. And no, We didn't sign Chazz up for Summer school and you can't expect me to even DESIRE to be up just so he can. Fuck the school. If we didn't say that he can and didn't get notified that he has to, the school can go sit and spin.


+_+ I'm so happy that Nica's reading SS-TLC~~


Eventually I have to start my cosplays... but I really don't see this happening anymore. Number's in my head aren't adding up.

Click my babies :c



In other news, my throat hurts :| a lot. I'm hoping this goes away soon. It's bringing me down, man.

happy birthday, Lina! My most favorite cock of all~~

How really give up on some choice things. Things continue to go up and down and little me continues to sit here with no control of herself. That's just as well. If it cannot be helped then it cannot be helped. Nothing has to change, it just has to keep moving, right?

It would just seem I am not the type of person who can handle things like this when it really is just like this.




Either way. NICA, I AM MAKING A DEAL WITH YOU SINCE I KNOW I CAN TRUST YOU. :| Read Saint Seiya-The Lost Canvas for me and I'll join EWAY.


Also +_+ I found the buttons! I just have to wait until we have money, which I hope is soon so I can send out for the hat and the buttons together for the Blood Dupre Cosplay. I'll have to paint the buttons, but I knew I'd have to do something like that anyway. Once I get that I can at least start changing the hat to look like his and then start worrying about the cane. Amazing how I want to worry about the extra stuff before the actual outfit.

While I'm doing this, I have to start Ikuto's Death Rebel and Romano from APH. Plus, you know, actually getting a straight answer on what KHR cosplay we're doing.


And Koko? You and your money have become useless to me. I'll be doing this on my own.

This only made me think how awesomely violent, twisted, sick, sadistic, wrong and utterly hot a pairing between Vincent Nightray and Kami-sama would be +_+

I wasn't going to say anything else on the matter at all. Even seriously after Kate told me to use her computer and read the journal post you put up.



Do not have a bitchfit when my friends decide they want to comment to something I said. If they wish to say something about it, they are free to. That is what my journal is for.


Also, for the record since it seems to deeply offend you? I have no issues, deeply rooted or no. That is not a real RP for me, for Kate, and for just about anyone else I've ever known that was involved. I've been questioned for years why I put up with it. I've even stopped Kate from going off on you guys a few times. But for right now? I'm done. Maybe I'll sign on when I'm over this.

Like I said before, I really like playing my OC's because they are mine, but I'm not up for driving myself crazy to do so.





Now I should write up a list of items I'll need for prop making... I'd make a list of things I'd need for the cosplay, but the groups is still too scattered to figure out what we were even doing past The Reborn Kokuyo group.

Well, at first my sister was upset because I actually said a curse word toward her boyfriend. Maybe it's big to them because I generally am a person who doesn't think curse words are necessary to articulate an argument or any type of speech. But obviously in their eyes I am not allowed to be pissed off to high hell when my requests are ignored because you want to be a controlling bastard. Reality check, I'm not my sister and you are not about to get over on me the way you do my sister.

So now we were suppose to have a family meeting because they wanted to know why we said all of that? We wanted to have a family meeting yesterday because it ever had to be said to my mother but at that point the fact we wanted to say some things and get some things straightened out didn't matter to them. Now that they realize we're serious they want to curse us out for stepping out of line? Too late to complain to us now and I'm not going to listen to it if you're not going to listen to us either.





Time again for cleaning out my characters in Cross & CW. The nights of nothingness are starting to become more frequent. I should start apping other games or something because this is seriously getting old.






Also, signing into MSN when I have other things going on or am too busy to deal with getting IM 5-6 times at once on an old computer that freezes a lot with people who don't even ask me if I want to rp but instead just send tags and get upset if I ignore them is NOT A PRIORITY TO ME. I will sign on when I feel I can stand to go through all of that shit. This is not saying I hate you people, but Jesus. If I don't want to sign on and deal with it especially with all of this shit happening now that dad is gone? I'M NOT GOING TO.

I like playing my OC's, but if I have to deal with you people bitching every time I can't do what you want? Fuck off then. I CAN find other places to play them. Not to mention I HATE getting things through Kate.

PICK ANY RP CHARACTER I HAVE EVER PLAYED and I will ATTEMPT to answer the following questions about him/her/it.

And this is my muse list if you can't choose for have forgotten.


01. Full name
02. Best friend
03. Sexuality
04. Favorite color
05. Relationship status
06. Ideal mate
07. Turn-ons
08. Last sexual experience
09. Favorite food
10. Crushes
11. Favorite music
12. Biggest fear
13. Biggest fantasy
14. Quirks in bed
15. Bad habits
16. Biggest regret
17. Best kept secrets
18. Last thought
19. Worst sexual/romantic experience
20. Biggest insecurity

Ok, so I apped Vincent in a different rp just to see how his over all app appealed to games and if it was alright. To say the very least it was denied, but for three reasons. Two reason is fixable, sure. The other one I'm... sort of baffled over.


- How do you prove Vincent Nightray can be played in a multi-fandom setting?


I can't even... begin to explain it really. Pfft, oh well. It only has to be good enough for Clockwork anyway.... and Permanent Way.

Most of the time I feel I should just x-out of the ooc than sit there and watch that crap.

And muse things. That muse needs to get over themselves. Never mind. I don't even feel like talking about any of this anymore.

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And now, when I can gain my right mind back, I need to search out Vincent. This is now mandatory.

I'M NOT EVEN SURE I'LL BE ABLE TO CONCENTRATE ON IT! I'll try though, damn it.




But hey, my mother says we should give my younger sister the child to watch if we are going to be taking a trip. She also says she wants to help my credit so I can but a house in two years. I'm... not even sure what I should be thinking about this. She even said she'll pay off the debit she's collected on my credit :| talk about astounding.

So many strange things come of just one man dying.





AHA! HERE YOU PEOPLE GO :3

With the thought of picking Sano back up, it feels so empty without Awna-san there for him. And it just goes on to make me feel so.... ;A; I want to rp with her again. It's so sad!

I don't know what the fuck is going on anymore and quite frankly, being outside the loop is fucking irritating. My wit's were pretty thin before and I don't want to overreact right now and make a mistake.


But you know, I fucking hate being left here alone for hours with nothing to do but think. I also can't stand watching this shit happening. I'm quite seriously nearly ready to say fuck you, don't bother me anymore.



Just..... fuck.